LightandDark

3 plus years ago I decided I needed some help. Not from a doctor, not from my parents, not from anything I was familiar with, but instead more outside my comfort zone. I have also always been about routine and comfort and anxious about anything that came my way. Prior to that, I had gone to one fluke event on Facebook I found because I felt like I was burning out. In 2021, I went on a yoga retreat; I had never done more than stretching in my living room or at the gym prior. http://purelightwellness.com (has changed her name since 2021). I met women I knew nothing about, I met women I could relate to, I met women who had the kindest hearts but didn’t know how to take care of themselves, I met like-minded women who just saw it and came. These women changed my perspective on life, knowing or unknowingly to me. This was the start of my transformation I never saw coming.

I came home and said I was going to use all the skills; I woke up early and did yoga. I worked on creating a new routine within my body and home life. Within less than a month’s time, I quit doing yoga; I quit saying I was worthy of me time. I struggled to make it work. During this time, I had a huge gut feeling about my marriage and trust. I confronted this gut feeling. This gut feeling pulled me down quickly. Without going into details because that’s not why we are here, I continued to doubt myself and doubt my feelings.

Doubting my feeling sent me down a spiral I never saw coming. I went back to therapy and I went back to the doctor, but in my home life, I pushed it farther down and pushed it under the rug. Pushed it way, way down deep and said, ‘Ok, I can’t trust myself.’ I continued to talk to the therapist, and she blamed my past for why I was acting the way I was. I believed her but couldn’t get past this feeling.

Robin Eaton changed my view on life, and Erin McGuire changed my views on myself, or maybe a mix of both. Then I met a community that was understanding and loved to watch people grow and transform.